its been awhile

Where do I start? So much has happened, started, going on. This might be a catch up post. I will share pictures as well :)

Umm where do I start really: Lil G started Kindergarten full day and loves it. I take her to school in the morning, and she rides the buss home. Shes the first stop and loves it so far. We have tried the riding to school on the buss thing, it just does not work for us. she has to wake up earlier, and well its better this way. shes in Kindergarten with her bud her god brother who is 6 weeks younger, they are so close its cute.

Lil G turned FIVE in July oh my. My miracle is in kindergarten and growing up so fast. She will be an only child. Its for the best for my family right now. But god is the ultimate one to make that decisions. If it happens great, but at the same time we are not stopping it from happening. Just not taking all the medinces and what not.

Julie and I have put the past behind us, been doing a ton of talking. I missed the old Julie, and shes back for now. I just hope that it stays this way, and not just a fluke.

We went camping in Sept Labor day weekend. It was just the 3 of us, we had a blast. Lil G and I had some great mommy and me time, while hubby and I had some much needed couples time. I enjoyed our camping trip. Sunday (3rd day there ) Julie and her family and mine all went to the beach together, played in the sand and what not. They invited us back tot here camp site( at another camp ground ) and hubby said no thank you, I found out the next day. I guess that he wanted it just us. how sweet. this was before Julie and I started talking more, and worked things out.

Im enjoying myself being home during the day. Just working on getting all the kinks of having a kid in school all day, and staying home worked out. I have never been one to not work, and just sit around all day. Thank heaven I have Genevieves Place to keep me busy and help with money for bills and what not.

Last night hubby brought me home this hugh desk its like 3 feet by 6 feet, and we have a very small duplex, no room for it. But I really needed it and he knew that. well now its in our home, and almost set up. Then he bought me a flat screen computer monitor. Moving up in the world people.  :) I have my desk for my bow making and what not, and my computer, and its all clean. Nice work area to. Then I can keep the sewing to the kitchen table. I cant wait to use it. Plus its where I can see my family more, and not in the corner of the dining room away from everyone.


In July I was Dx With PTSD and Pmmd, not fun at all. Its been a wild ride, trying to figure it all out, trying to figure out what has caused it, and along with trying so hard to be a better mom and wife. Things have happened that I wish I could take back, I have done things that I should never have done. I know that having the PTSD, has caused me to do them things. I have an amazing husband, that has opened my eyes, and has and is helping me become a better wife, mom and person. More of this later.

Julie was on medinces for mental reasons and went off them when she started working 2 years ago. Since she could notr afford them anymore, well Im thinking thats what happened. they made her change. and now shes trying to go to part time, and start making hair bows like me. Its going to be fun. I cant wait. Im enjoying having the old Julie back. Shes talking to me more now, opening up again. Its truely amazing. I guess her Boyfriend talked to her and opened her eyes as well. She blogged about me the other day and made me cry, It was a happy cry. The kind words that she had said touched my heart. We spent most of yesterday texting back and forth it was nice and fun.

Carrie on the other hand, well shes still drinking, dont have her kids still. Dont see that one happening in the near future. Im at a loss with her. Part of me wants to cut the strings and move on without her friendship. But Then I know how much I mean to her, not sure what to do about that one. I just wish that she would quit drinking and get her kids back.

Hubby still drinks, what a shocker right. Well I think that he always will. Im just so blessed and thankful that he does not abuse me anymore. Its been 10 years since he has hit me. I know you are thinking im old now.

Nope im 33, married for 12 years, and been with the love of my life for 13 years come November. We have a 5 year old and that is my life.

well I better get Lil's g room all cleaned, got some new bins for her toys today. Took out to large bags of toys Monday, and shes been keeping ti pretty clean lately. She has no idea that I took the toys out. I doubt that she will miss them.

I will be back. . . Hopefully sooner than later. Now that I have more time on my hands. Hey maybe I can get back into my farmville game :) Oh boy.