Have you ever wanted something so bad, and just cant have it.

Well thats what hubby and I have been dealing with, or feeling. We have been trying off and on for four years now to give Lil'G a sibling and no such luck.Just another let down after another. Yesterday, i went and seen yet another Dr. I have lost count on how many i have seen in the 11 years of trying to complete my family. 7 years is what the magic number was for Lil'G, and now we are on 4 + and still no luck. Its really getting old to hear, sorry I cant help you, i dont know how to fix your body. Gee why are you a doctor? I hate having PCOS, I have never in all my life been normal. I have always had to take hormone replacements month after month, just to have a period. and well its really amazing that I cant find a doctor that knows why my body is so screwed up. Im so tired of hearing the words of loose some weight you will be normal then. Sorry Doctor(s) I have lost it, and still nothing. I was 16 when i had to start taking Provera  ( aka Progerston ) just to have a period, since i never got one on my own. After giving birth to Lil'G I really thought an prayed that I would have a period on my own. Nope never happened. I have to take hormones month after month just to have a period. When i was little it was so cool. I thought, boy was I wrong. I did not have to worry about the monthly visit if I did not want it. and well being a teen and in my early 20's I did not want it. But once it became time to start my family, it made things so much harder and worse. Now i have tilted uterus and the Ultrasound tech cant find my ovaries. As of yesterday. Gee what else needs to go wrong. So yet, im off to see another Dr, another let down to come soon.

Dont get me wrong im so blessed, and so thankful for Lil'G. But I really want my dream of my completed family to come true. I really want four kids, but one more will be just fine. Since Its such a hard and long war to fight. Im getting older and so is Lil'G shoot shes almost 4 1/2.

I hoping that someone reading this can help me, someone that says hey thats me, and this is what works or does not work.