Good bye and hello

Good bye to 2010, the fat me, ttc for a second baby, and the rough life. Hello to a new me, no more ttc, and a better marriage, and life. 2011 is going to be a much better year for the 3 of us.

Im going to look into signing Lil'G up for Daisy, ( Girl scouts) I think that she would love it, and then she can make more friends. Oh we are going to have a great life together little girl.

WOW

I got deleted, and blocked off Facebook. By an old friend well an old Ex boy friend. See my really good Friend Carlena. Which i have known since middle school. has been dating my ex boyfriend David for about 12 years. I can care less, he was just a thing back when i was young. I know that he still loves and cares about me. Hes told me before, and well im over him. So anyways, yesterday on Facebook he posted something and I replied to it. Well Carlena's, brother did not like it and got his panties all in a bunch. I have not talked to Carlena in almost a month, all of a sudden yesterday she calls me. Which I find funny, knowing that she called about her brother, getting his panties in a bunch. So tonight im on my store Facebook, and David pops up, and chats, says hes sorry about Carlena brother and what not. SO I went to back onto my personal account which he was on both, so that I could finish uploading pictures, and I got to chat with him. Guess what hes blocked, and deleted me. Oh man, thats just the funniest thing i have heard or seen in awhile. So i get blocked, and deleted for speaking my mind. WOW. And before that when i was on my store account. he was all nice and cool. What a pussy $%^, dont have the balls to say it o my face, gee I think thats one reason why hes my EX. I never really cared for him, but oh well. Im so over it. I just think that you would love a laugh here on Christmas night.

BTW Lil'G had a wonderful chirstmas. More about that and some pictures tomorrow.

And heres a link to my store. www.facebook.com./genevievesplace2006 i make and sell clothing, hair bows, and much much more.

Chirstmas Eve.

First off Merry chirstmas to each and everyone of you. My chirstmas Eve is getting a really bad start. The starter to my car died, and hubby's been laid off. Im not sure what we are going to do. Nothing is going right. Lil'G went to cook her mac and cheese, and cooked it for 30 minutes in the microwave, and not 3 minutes. After 10 minutes i was like gee why is the microwave still going. Then I made a salad to take to my moms for dinner, and Lil' G deiced that she dont want to eat a bite, and spit it back out at me. Oh man its been a roller coaster of a ride kind of day.

My sister came and got Lil'G and I, and took us to my mom and dads for Christmas at there house. Then my dad brought us all home. Hubby was out fishing with Carlos, and he had Carlos give him a ride to my moms house. It was nice to have all my family there. Then my dad brought us home, and now hubby and my dad are getting a part to hopefully fix my car. Lets home and pray. Man i dont know what i would do without my car. Its like a piece of me.

Santas coming tonight, and boy oh boy Lil' G is in for it. she has no idea that Santa went over board for her. But you know after 7 long years of infertitly treatments, shes worth each and every dime we spend on her.

Lil'G's first christmas and now

Chirstmas 2006 Lil' G was only 6 months old, and here she was:

 Lil' G at the age  4 1/2 years. 

This is what it looked like when Santa came. I guess being an only child has a good pay off, shes always getting a ton of gifts. 

Its amazing how much she has grown in the last 4 years. 

Christmas party with carrie

Carrie is my Best Friend, even though sometimes I cant and wont agree with her actions. But hey thats why we love each other.

so yesterday Carrie had a chirstmas party with her kids, and all the other foster kids. Long story, about her and her kids in foster care. So she asked if I would mind filling in as her husband. Since hes in jail right now, and she was worried about taking on all 3 kids alone at this party. So I went and so did Lil'G. Lil'G and the kids had a nice time. There where so many little baby's there, which all where in foster Care. It just broke my heart, that people let things happen, and they loose there kids. one lady had like 7-8 kids, and has her kids in different homes. It just broke my heart. Im so blessed to have Lil'G in my life, and I would never allow anything to happen to her, to be in the shoes that Carries kids are in. It bothers me, and hurts to see  Carrie having to go thru this. It was a nice little party. With tons of crafts for the kids, and the kids all got gifts from Santa, and seen Santa.

Lil'G got a ZuZu pet. And well it has a warning sticker on the bottom, about not getting it close to hair. Well last night we get home, and she got it stuck in her hair. Oh man was I freaking out. I thought that i was going to have to cut her hair, but daddy came to the rescue and got it taken apart, and we got the ZuZu pet out of Lil'G's hair. and the Zuzu pet is back in one peice again.

my birthday came and gone. I got really sick for about 2 weeks. hubby made me dinner the night of my birthday, then the following day, and the 3rd day. He helped me cook dinner for a small birthday dinner for me, and a few close freinds. It was really nice birthday. The day of my birthday we took Lil'G to school, and then hubby went and got me a bath set. Oh how it smells so yummy and I love it. Then when we went and got Lil'G from school, she had to tell all her friends that it was mommy's birthday, and we are having a party. I had to break the news to the 4 year olds that they would not like my party. As it was just dinner, and nothing more. But its something that adults do. Shoot when you are old its what you do. Then a few days later hubby, Lil'G, and I went and looked at Chirstmas lights. Since my birthday is 15 days before Chirstmas, its kind of been a thing long before Lil'G came along. We had a really nice time.

Lil'G has seen Santa twice this week, and been to Two chirstmas party's. Shes really loving this chirstmas/Santa thing.

We last weekend baked some cookies, to pass out to family and friends, it was so neat to bake with her. Then after a batch, Lil'G went and played legos with daddy. Oh its so cute to watch them together.

Its been nice and bad having hubby home. I think sometimes he forgets that the world does not stop because hes laid off. He thinks that he gets to sleep in all day or what not, but then he has them days that he makes up for it all, and cooks for me, and takes care of Lil'G and I.

With no income coming in the drinking has been much better. Well no money to buy the beer, so he cant drink as much. and oh boy does he get bored easily.

Right now Lil'G and daddy are watching Mulain together. Oh its so cute, im going to leave it as it for now. And get back to baking cookies some more.

Have you ever wanted something so bad, and just cant have it.

Well thats what hubby and I have been dealing with, or feeling. We have been trying off and on for four years now to give Lil'G a sibling and no such luck.Just another let down after another. Yesterday, i went and seen yet another Dr. I have lost count on how many i have seen in the 11 years of trying to complete my family. 7 years is what the magic number was for Lil'G, and now we are on 4 + and still no luck. Its really getting old to hear, sorry I cant help you, i dont know how to fix your body. Gee why are you a doctor? I hate having PCOS, I have never in all my life been normal. I have always had to take hormone replacements month after month, just to have a period. and well its really amazing that I cant find a doctor that knows why my body is so screwed up. Im so tired of hearing the words of loose some weight you will be normal then. Sorry Doctor(s) I have lost it, and still nothing. I was 16 when i had to start taking Provera  ( aka Progerston ) just to have a period, since i never got one on my own. After giving birth to Lil'G I really thought an prayed that I would have a period on my own. Nope never happened. I have to take hormones month after month just to have a period. When i was little it was so cool. I thought, boy was I wrong. I did not have to worry about the monthly visit if I did not want it. and well being a teen and in my early 20's I did not want it. But once it became time to start my family, it made things so much harder and worse. Now i have tilted uterus and the Ultrasound tech cant find my ovaries. As of yesterday. Gee what else needs to go wrong. So yet, im off to see another Dr, another let down to come soon.

Dont get me wrong im so blessed, and so thankful for Lil'G. But I really want my dream of my completed family to come true. I really want four kids, but one more will be just fine. Since Its such a hard and long war to fight. Im getting older and so is Lil'G shoot shes almost 4 1/2.

I hoping that someone reading this can help me, someone that says hey thats me, and this is what works or does not work.

November came and gone. December is here, and so is our Christmas tree. Our Christmas tree smells and looks so pretty. Hubby even did the lights outside. Lil' G had to help daddy do the lights outside and the tree.

Lil' G and daddy getting the tree all ready.

Friday night we went to a birthday party for a close friends little boy. It was nice to go as a family. Hubby even had a nice time. Lil' G had a blast, shes getting partied out already. Had another birthday party today. Curtis one of the kids in her class really likes Lil' G but who would not. Oh man, they had a blast playing.

In three short weeks Christmas will be here, and then comes 2011. hoping that 2011 is a better year.

Lil' G is in love with soft blankets, she got a new one today and has been carrying it every where. I got me a new soft blanket for my early Christmas gift, and Lil' G stole it. So today I went and got her a little mermaid one. and its been everywhere today with her. Its so cute how she still loves Little mermaid and Dora. Lil' G will go from one charotor to another, but them to shes kept since day one.

Hubby has made me feel a little more loved lately. Maybe he has seen what he has, and how it all can be gone in a second.

My birthday is Friday, and next weekend we are planning a small dinner, and get together. I cant wait for good friends to come over, hubby to meet a few new friends. and just have some good old fun.